As kyo finished his last paper on Friday n there was the title-deciding Chelsea-ManU match on Saturday night, me, kyo, and sean decided to watch this match in a pub for fun lo haha.. before that, we had dinner at thai express($33.40).. then we made our way to DXO at esplanade.. open air lo, no air-con, but not bad la haha.. ordered a tower($39.80).. well, today the 3 of us were all Chelsea fans(although only sean was the real Chelsea fan, me(manU) n kyo(liverpool) were a Chelsea fan for the day cos we bet on them to win $51(cos we wanted to cover for the beer ma, haha).. after first half, we were smiling away le thanks to a nice header from Ballack, woohoo.. a full force Chelsea against an understrength ManU, shuang si.. so we decided to buy over 2 goals for the second half since both teams like quite attacking minded, so another $50 loh(wanted to cover for dinner ma, haha).. in the 2nd half Ronaldo came on, so we got abit scared.. but he didn’t need to do anything as carvalho gifted Rooney with a free chance to equalize, sien diao.. then we abit nervous le, cos needed Chelsea to score in order to win, then we were super lucky la, Carrick handball n Ballack stroke the ball coolly into the back of the net.. 2-1 but it was not safe yet(although already over 2 goals), 2 goal line clearances first from Ashley Cole and then Shevshenko(he play defense better la, haha..) really made our day.. final score 2-1~~ won $89.90~~ :)

 

Walked around boat quay n Clarke quay (din know there was a difference between the 2 quays), din know it was so happening 1 wo.. maybe I really lock myself up in hall too much le these 4 years, so seldom see the bustling side of town much.. saw belly dances, saw a restaurant with a ‘hospital’ theme, saw many ang mohs, saw many couples along the river stairs, I even saw sumiko (the columnist for The Sunday Times, she looks so different when she is not wearing her nike sponsored apparels haha..) with her bf lo=.= think now is her running season ba, cos she really slimmed down a lot le (maybe she will be running in the SunDown Marathon too??).. we still still thinking of whether to watch Liverpool or go back, with $16.70 left to spend we took a cab back home le, which cost $16.60.. 10 cents left~~ so basically we even earned 10 cents at the end of the day, hehe..

 

Although I m ManU fan, I still hope they dont win the EPL this seaon, come on chelsea~~ yes I m a traitor, cos I bought Chelsea to win the epl(odds 5) this season le, haha.. n liverpool(odds 23) to win Champions league.. last season, my prediction quite zhun de lo ok.. ManU odds 6.20 to win epl n real Madrid odds 11 to win Spanish laliga lo, hehe.. gogo Liverpool n Chelsea~~ sean also bought the same with me, so we hoping for the best liao, haha..  180 minutes left for both teams respectively to fight for honors this season competitions, if everything goes well, i will be happy loh, hehe..

 

haha, really zuobo these whole week, think tomolo will start doing my poster le.. here is something I wanted to blog for a long time since the end of floorball div1, but too busy with FYP le so had to wait til now to blog..

 

After the last match of the season, where we were relegated, I really felt like giving up.. again.. it’s not as if I never gave up b4 in my life.. twice to be exact.. once after primary.. once after high school.. when there is an up, there is always a down, think that is the way of life ba..

 

Primary(taekwondo)

When I first entered 冼都华小 in 1992 as a 7 year old, my mum enrolled me for taekwondo lessons.. First to learn some basic self defense, 2nd to stay healthy.. as a young kid, whatever ur parents gave u, u would just take it in, rite? Haha.. after first few lessons, I started to like it very much.. my coach was 1 of the best around, not just bcos he was a black belt 4th Dan, but bcos he thought us a lot about life.. tell us wat is right n wat is wrong, n never failed to motivate us.. so I started taking my trainings seriously n by primary 4, I was the fastest in my academy to get my black belt 1st Dan, hehe.. primary 4 was also the first time my coach let me take part in competitive tournaments.. with my 2 seniors, we trained hard for our first tournament, which was an international invitational, where the likes of power houses South Korea, Australia, New Zealand, Singapore came n compete as well.. n the 3 of us won gold in our first attempt!! yuhuu.. being the underdogs, we performed our taeguek 7 to near-perfection n beat teams from other countries, shuang lah.. I dedicate this victory to my mum n dad for their support all the way..

 

However, that was also the beginning of my down fall from this sport.. since that tournament, we became the favourites going into local tournaments, but we had never ever managed to get into the top 3 anymore, haiz.. very disappointing since we trained even harder than we did for our first tournament.. referee bias?? Really no idea.. Anyway, we still competed n gave our best, big thanks to my coach for having faith in us, n big thanks to my 2 seniors too!! The end of my career was when I was in primary 6, where my seniors graduated.. without my 2 best partners, I was lost, no partners, I didn’t take part in any tournaments le.. although I got my black belt 2nd Dan, by then the end already seemed inevitable, haiz..

 

Secondary(track & field)

1998 was the first year I entered 吉隆坡中华独中.. although there was the taekwondo club in school, I decided to try something different.. I was abit weird, cos I couldn’t think of training under a different coach or training with a different gang.. n dun have my 2 partners too, so sien diao le..

 

Ok, y I chose this n not the other sports? It was bcos of 1 person –张志清, aka ah ching, haha.. first time entering the 体育处, he was the most friendly teacher there, n he had a small chat with me.. that was when I knew he was in charge of the track & field team, so track & field it is.. should be nice to train under such a nice coach ba I tot.. the starting wasn’t smooth, as I was definitely not the most talented junior in the team.. so I got ‘throw’ to 110m hurdles(faster juniors would run the 100m or 200m).. never had such intense training b4 til then, so always had asthma after trainings, mum even had to take me to clinic a few times, sucks la.. doc asked me to stop, but I didn’t care, haha.. owe a lot to 锦耀( my 1st vice captain i've known) for encouraging me n saying I have the potential to train.. so I trained really hard n in my first 雪隆八独中运动会, I got selected to represent KL in the 全国独中运动会, happy happy.. I was the only 13yr old in the whole KL team, competing in the under 16 category, but after months of training, I manage to get 7th in the finals, yeah.. n that was when my track & field interest kicked off..

 

Sec 2 was when I was converted into a short D runner, abit static, not much progress.. sec 3 was my breakthrough year I think, thanks to 建茂(he ran for NTU too 4 years ago, hehe.. n is 1 of the top 5 long D runners in Singapore now..) for training n scolding me n for his grueling 课表 (most of us would vomit after his trainings cos really too exhausted le), but it paid off.. broke records in 200m, 400m, n 800m.. Sec 4 nothing much, sec 5 broke records for 200m n 400m, n my last year in high school, broke records for 400m, 400m hurdles, n triple jump(try for fun de, lol..).. the last year was my peak, where I also helped KL win gold in MSSM n national under19 championships for the 4x400m event, high dao bao la(at that time I was the only non-Bukit Jalil Sport School runner in the team)..

 

After graduating, I never trained with my group of 中华 runners le, cos leave school liao ma.. had to train on my own, no motivation liao lo.. although SUKMA was coming up, I was already on the down slide le..  trainings became lonely without my frens.. my form dipped so bad that I wasn’t even included in the 4x400m finals of SUKMA, haiz.. all time low le.. training under state coach mr khoo also seemed strange as I was used to trainings under Ah ching for so long.. aiya, I just didn’t know wat I was fighting for anymore, after SUKMA, I totally stopped training le..

 

University(floorball)

I still ran for NTU when I joined in 2004, but I hardly trained for the IVPs at all.. 1 or 2 days before IVP, just went down take my steps, then go n compete le.. the team din train tgt so I didnt really have very close frens like in 中华.. felt sien after 1st year, really no motivation to train le, that’s when me, hooi, guan saw a sport called 'floorball’..

 

My first encounter with floorball was when I played for SBS in ISG, where we got 2nd!! Got widhya, soak kuan, subhajeet, renchun, kah wai sure 2nd la, haha.. they asked me to play as a defender cos they said Joshua was very fast n was 1 of the best dribblers in NTU, so they just need me to run n defend him can le, hehe.. but I liked the pace of the game so took part in street challenge with Hooi(best defender), Guan(best forward), Shu Kai(best midfielder=.=), n Chien Ying(best goalie).. I was the ‘best substitute’ then, lol.. y we decided to try for IVP squad?? Cos we tot it was the easiest among all the sports after watching Hurricanes got trashed by Nhac Trec 23-1 when we passed by SRC one day, haha.. soli but this is the truth.. Me, Hooi, Vinny, Gerald, Senthil were drafted in as freshies for the 2006 IVP under Filip.. me n hooi nearly din make the team loh, heng(cos our suicide runs were among the fastest, phew..)~~ Filip was a good coach but not the best la(always laugh at me sarcastically, I wont forget de, haha..), the time I really started to improve was when Eddie was coach.. scored my first goal for NTU against Meridien JC, n that was when Eddie gave me my chance.. always motivated us during div2(hardly scold us lat all loh..) n always gave us pointers on how to improve, without him I might have given up on floorball long ago le.. besides that, also wanna thank Jamie for his patience, n the 2 best captains in the world – Kevin n Adrian Yeap.. in my first full season, scored 16 n 6 assists during div 2 n 4 goals 2 assist during 2007 IVP.. was really enjoying my game until..

 

2007 div1 where we fighting for relegation.. when we starting losing a few games, everybody just started blaming each other.. the whole team was all negative influences, not only during matches but during trainings as well.. I also kept getting scolded by my own team mates, haiz.. really disappointed.. in my 6 years in taekwondo n 6 yrs in 中华 track & field, no matter if we won or lost, we would only help each other n motivate each other, no scolding no criticizing no bad influences in the team, so for me this was just unacceptable.. the older we get the harder for us to think n act properly? Slowly lost the fire to fight for the team le, but still carried on as I still liked playing the game.. 2008 IVP n div1 I was all the way down hill le, never looked like returning to my best, n it was the end le..

 

 

N so that’s how I ended yet another chapter of my life.. another unhappy ending.. 3 ups n 3 downs all together.. all within my short short 16 years as a sportsman.. wat is there to look forward to in the future? Will I take up another new sport? I dun really know, but wat I know is I had a lot of fun in this 16 years, thanks everyone for everything~~ n I couldn’t have done it without support from my parents n brothers n friends along the way too, thanks thanks~~

 

 

When you have confidence, you can have alot of fun, and when you have fun, you can do amazing things..

 

hmm.. i tot i was the blurest person yesterday, but i was wrong as i found someone even more blur than me, haha..

 

ok, finally decided to start looking for a job.. went to jobstreet for the first time, so cin cai applied a few jobs.. went for my afternoon nap, 2 hours later i received a phone call from one of the companies.. still lying on bed, i answered the phone call..

 

1st Q: do u remember which post u applied for in our company?

1st R: err.. is it the 1 bout Life Sciences 1 ar? (she asked me, i asked her back, haha.. i applied quite a few ma, how i know which 1, but i SBS de ma, so my answer also not bad la rite, lol..)

 

2nd Q: do u know wat this job is about?

2nd R: err.. not very sure wo haha.. (management trainee in life sciences?? neva heard b4 tim, how i know do wat de leh, lol..)

 

3rd Q: so then y did u apply for this post?

3rd R: actually, i anything also can de.. (gg liao, wat was i thinking!!)

 

4th Q? if still got 4th question, then is miracle liao la, haha..

 

IMMEDIATELY after 3rd R: ok we will review ur application n call u back, good bye.. (followed by the phone being hung up)

 

shitttt, an interview became like a casual conversation.. some more dare to laugh when answering =.= haha dun think i have to wait for their reply le la, i already know the result le, haiz.. how can i be so blur ar??? but this is my first time ma (excluding the SIA air steward walk-in interview), cant blame me also rite? lol.. maybe bcos i just woke up still blur? or is it bcos i always so blur? =.=

 

 

BUT i felt better later when i found somebody even more blur than me!!

 

he wears a red color jersey with number 6 on the back for a team that never walks alone, he came in as a substitute as his number 12 team mate got injured.. his team, aka the Reds were playing so well n was leading 1-0 in this first leg encounter.. for 93 minutes and 45 seconds, his team defended well against the blue team from london.. everything was going nicely until this number 6 decided to walk alone and do something so blur u wouldnt even imagine.. soccer rite? can use legs n other parts of the body rite? except the hands la.. so with wat was possibly the last attack from the blue team, a cross came into the 6 yard area and he was nearest to the ball..

 

for a normal defender who is not blur, low cross coming in, sure use leg n clear la rite? ok this number 6 decided to be different, 'y not try heading it out?' n so he did try USING HIS HEAD =.= n guess wat? he scored!! with HIS HEAD!! n it was an OWN GOAL!! faint.. walao, me n kyo were just saying 'aiya should be safe liao la' then that blur blur guy gave us a shock of our lives, zzz.. use ur leg la, alamak.. if left 1 cannot, use right leg la, y use head?! (dun understand how kyo can still like his liverpool so much, wahaha..)

 

this number 6 was John Arne Riise=.=

 

 

so now, who is more blur? :)

 or

had been playing 3-4 rounds of dota at jv's room today le, really zuobo dao, lol.. so at night when it was kah wai's turn to play, i really couldnt stand watching le, so i decided to go jogging again loh.. but no 灵感 where to jog, so jogged the same route as i did last week, only this time the other way round.. first 199 route out of ntu, then reach jp, then 199 route back into ntu lo.. yesh!! 52 minutes, improved le.. keep thinking things along the way so didnt quite enjoy my run though, haha..

 

hmm, tot bout dota when i was jogging (really too much dota lately)=.= i realised that no matter how many games i play, my assist is always higher than my kills.. it doesnt matter if i m using a damager(suppose to have the highest kills eventually), tanker or spell caster, it is always assists higher than kills.. maybe it's the way i m ba lately, and this is not only for dota, even in floorball i also have this tendency not to score, but to assist..  hmm, maybe ppl would say y so stupid assist when u can score the goals or get the kills?

 

haha, i think the beauty of assist is the satisfaction in making that important pass or helping a team mate kill an opponent and then sharing the glory together.. eg if u took the ball dribble dribble n score, it would be ur personal glory; but if u took the ball dribble dribble n pass for ur team mate to score, the joy would be shared by 2 n not 1 person, right?

 

however, an assist would normally go unnoticed as the goals r the ones remembered most of the time, so ur work might not always be appreciated.. but without these players sacrificing personal glory for the team, do u think a team can play well n win? 

 

 

the 3 most beautiful passers in the nba of all time - John Stockton, Jason Kidd, and Steve Nash.. the assist kings..

 

NBA playoffs is back!!! think houston will suck again, haiz.. btw, houston's 22 winning streak achieved this season (also second longest in nba history) was not because Tracy Mcgrady took everything upon himself, but bcos he got his team mates more into the game n everyone scored for the team.. unlike when he used to be the only 1 scoring, he passed more during these 22 games.. see how big the difference can be?

 

LA lakers, top of the western conference this season, y? with Kobe bryant trusting his team mates more by passing to open players, the lakers just seem unstoppable (57wins-25loses)at the moment.. compared to last season(42-40), where everything was just about Kobe(Kobe even managed to score 81 points in a single game), but where did they end up? 7th.

杨宗纬-洋葱
作词/作曲:阿信(五月天)

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护着你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃着聊着笑着
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看着你
偷偷的隐藏着自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就像一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

 

yuhuu, just read finished 'The Pact' by Jodi Picoult.. another great book by Jodi i think, it's my 3rd time reading her stuff le, other than 'My sisters keeper' and 'Nineteen minutes' (which were both equally nice btw)..

 

ok, so the story is about 2 青梅竹马-Chris and Emily, who had known each other since they were babies n had basically spent their whole lives together (as they were neighbours, same school, same class).. their relationship evolved from brother-sister to being lovers, a couple, when they were 13, n they were madly in love with each other, as if they were inseparable.. both families were very close to each other, until 1 day - when Emily was found shot in the head with Chris as the only person at the crime scene.. it was first tot that this could be a double suicide attempt, but further investigations showed otherwise n Chris was charged with first degree murder.. things fell apart betwen both families n Chris' life was torn apart.. so was emily really suicidal or was she murdered by her true love?? or could there be something more to it than that? hmm, cant tell la if not become spoiler le haha..

 

anyway, the lesson or question raised in this novel is - how far r u willling to go for ur true love.. when u really love someone, will u do whatever it takes to make her happy even if u know it's wrong to do so?? or will u choose to do wat u think is right ethically but which might be against her will?? when put under these situations, how would u know which choice is the 'right' decision to make leh??

 

maybe i still dun really understand wat 'true love' is, so i would probably say i'll do the right thing ethically.. but if u r truely madly deeply in love with someone, will u still think like this?? or would u do wat is best for her/him even though it is wrong ethically??

 

 

haha, me n huishan's matchmake.com =.=

 

ok, think this would never materialise, y leh? cos we are still S.A.D. (singale, available, n desperate), haha.. we cant even find our own other half, how will ppl believe that we can find for them leh, hmmm.. yahor..

 

our reason for this idea? although we cant find happiness for ourselves, at least we help others find their happiness.. n it is not to 积福 lo hui shan(ok maybe abit la), haha..

 

our motivation? not the $$, but the gossips, wahaha..

 

client #1? hui shan, wahahaha.. 

 

client's 爱人? cannot tell, but most likely he will see this post..

 

matchmaking success? 1%, recently found out her matchmake target is 99% to being attached le, sien diao.. =.= 1st client already failed, alamak.. hmm that's another reason y i think our idea wont work in the end, haha..

 

who can find us? anyone, any age, any gender, anything.. but better think twice la, lol..

 

fees? free, but we will gossip about u, so hmm.. think thrice la, haha..

 

any questions, please find us at SBS south building level 3.. might need access card to enter though, too bad.. can find me at Curt Davey's lab or hui shan at Tang Kai's lab(please knock on the door, cos she might be too focused on watching her drama, DURING WORK!! think tang kai might consider cutting her salary, wahaha...)

 

as for our next client, better pray that we have improved on our matchmaking skills, hehe..

 

 

Figure: The gal in the middle is hui shan, busy eating lah.. the guy on the left, who looks like he is praying is vincent(also a member of S.A.D), haha.. hmm as for the curry covered plate on the btm right, please just ignore it..

yippie~~ woohoo~~ thesis submitted le, now only left poster presentation on the 6th of May, wahaha~~ no classes n exams this semester, hmm seems abit weird, actually i kinda missed going to lectures (or more like skipping lectures haha), missed sleeping during lectures (compete with jv see who sleep longer), can always gap lui (that's y i always sit at the back hehe), can do lab with frens (FYP only 1 person do alone, so sien), can have more exciting gossips (now everybody different lab, got diffferent life le) etc la.. whole sem FYP only, although quite fun, but still not as fun as going to school loh..

 

ok, so yesterday after submitting my thesis, came back room watched movie loh, then bo liao so went jv's room DOTA -.-(my com really sucks haha), then came back room watch movie again, then sleep, then wanted to watch movie again after waking up, but felt really bored liao, so i decided to go for a JOG, wahaha..

 

ok asked a few ppl whether wanna jog, but seems like everybody busy revising, so in the end i ran alone loh.. hmm duno y i so stupid, after so sien jogging around ntu campus for 4 years, i still only jog around the campus, until the last time jogged out to discovery center with kyo, xiaohong n nana, then only found out jogging outside was so much more fun.. SunDown marathon coming le, so decided to train abit, target 1 hour non-stop la for a start(not bad la since i m a short distance runner, hehe)..

 

so i started at hall 14, then jogged along 199 til NIE then along 179 up to SBS, then Yunnan garden, then pioneer road junction.. hmm normally i would just jog straight back to hall, but ok la maybe wanna try jogging out again n go back room also really nothing to do le, so I TURNED RIGHT.. woohoo, ok then i was thinking jog til where leh, hmm.. b4 i could even make up my mind, i've already reached jurong west sports hall le, so I TURNED LEFT to JP, yuhuu.. jogged pass JP, then might as well come back along 199 route, haha.. yup so i came back by 199 route lo, n finally reached hall 14.. legs abit wobbly, hands abit 酸, but very HIGH leh, shuang shuang~~

 

took me around 55 minutes to finish the whole route, quite fun for an 1-hour run i think haha.. anybody interested can try try lo, really shuang, but must do it late at night la, probably pass 1130, less cars ma, if not quite troublesome need stop alot along the way.. yes so for those joggers in NTU, or even if u seldom jog, can try this route la, hehe.. jogging outside wont feel so tired leh, n not so boring also, scenery keep changing all the time, so it is much much better than jogging in campus lo i think.. oh n if anyone has other routes to recommend please tell me ya, thanks thanks..

 

oh, btw, 'run fat boy run' is a funny n relaxing movie, nice nice, suitable for exam period watching, hehe.. Jia you to those who have exams la, very fast over de, gambade la!!

fren abc ：“建德，你除了田径以外，做什么东西是有对自己有过信心的？”

 

that was 1 of my ex-track team mate's question when we were having tea in mamak back in kl 2 months ago..

 

2 months passed, when i look back at this question, i just cant think of any answers, haiz..

 

 

 

fren xyz : '... that's y la, i have LOSER friends like u all, ..."

 

that was 1 of my good frens remark when we crapping around, haha..

 

'aiya, suan liao la, easier to be a loser ma, haha..' was my reply..

 

since yr 2, i already lost count on how many 'aiya, suan liao la' i've said le lo, everything also suan liao, so easy to solve anything, but do i really mean it? i duno, haiz..

 

 

 

when a person doesnt have confidence, he is just a nobody..